Month: March 2013

  • This Sunday is already EASTER!!!

    And by that I mean time goes by a lot faster when you don’t go to church, I’ve realized.  

    Since my birth, my parents religiously took my siblings and I to church.  
    Along with this weekly ritual came the drag of time and dread every Sunday where I would numbly sit and listen to the Homily, knelt halfheartedly when we needed to, drew on the program, and mumbled lyrics to my favorite Jimmy Eat World song during the moments of personal prayer.
    And sure, church and Sunday school instilled a good sense of right and wrong in me, taught me to treat others as I wanted to be treated, and made me more empathetic to others. 

    But to this day, there is nothing – and I mean nothing – that I hate more, than going to church. Or talking about religion. Or ignorant religious bigots. Or southern accents.

    Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate a certain number of things – physical things –  that go along with Catholic mass.  The burning of incense, the laying of palms, holy water, ashes on Ash Wednesday.  I could sit in the Basilica of St. Mary and just listen for hours while not even doing anything myself.  

    I find this horribly ironic, because as tenaciously as my parents took me to church, I responded to absolutely NONE of it.  

    And I honestly don’t know why.  
    Logic tells me that I would grow up to be as god-fearing as anyone else with that kind of childhood, but when it comes to religion and my own life-after-death experience… I just don’t… care?  When I was a kid, people taught me that in order to be a good person, I had to follow “Jesus/Christ/God/whatever”.  
    When I was about six, I saw some kid bullying another kid at our Sunday school.  I came to the conclusion that I could just be a good person and NOT have to rely on something that I don’t even physically know exists.  
    I was also taught that if I didn’t go to church/had sex before marriage/killed someone that I would go to Hell after I die.

    People speculate so much about what death is like, and what happens to our souls when we finally die.  SO much that it is something that keeps them up at night. Me included. Until about a year ago I came to the conclusion to that question:  

    How does it feel when we sleep?  

    When we’re put under for surgery?  

    We’re unconscious, and therefore can’t… feel.  

    It only makes sense right?  

     

    I am put at ease by the thought that when I die, I will be taking the world’s LONGEST NAP.  And it will be AWESOME.

     

     

    Sorry for that weird post guys, but I just had to get that out of my head. 

     

    Love,

    A slightly tired Mary

        

     

  • H’okay, new post!  Sorry for the lag, but there are A LOT of people who are writing books
    and have the sudden urge to finish them before the end of next year.  
    This surge of work has really increased my chances to design more book covers and I’ve gotten a lot of compliments about how much my work has improved this year. 

    I actually updated my website and added a bunch of book covers that I’ve finished this past year if you’re interested in taking a gander :)  
    Luckily, they were with authors that took what I made and didn’t try to change it into something that looks absolutely horrendous.  


    In other news, we’ve been good!  

    A lot has pretty much stayed the same aside from us:

    - Deciding what our next car will be (a Scion iQ),
    - Working out pretty consistently (I’ve gained five pounds but gone down a pants size!  I maxed out at 115 on the bench on Friday!),
    - Getting our kitties to like each other (they sleep on the same bed now!)
    - And getting taxes done (we’re going to H&R Block tonight because we have absolutely no brains when it comes to taxes and math.  No judging!)

    So that’s fun.  Onto show & Tell! 

    What I have to share with you today though is a story I wrote and posted to NoSleep a while ago. 
    It’s a story I recalled from when I was a kid.  When we went up to the cabin, I was utterly terrified of the woods at night: 


    When I was a kid, I would scare easy. I hated ghost stories and “Bloody Mary” kinds of urban legends. I would frequently scare myself by making weird faces at the mirror. It was so bad that whenever I would be standing with my Mum in the checkout lane at the grocery store, looking at the tabloid magazines, even the slightest mention about cryptids or aliens would send me into a mini panic attack.

    My family has owned a small cabin on a lake in northern Minnesota since before my siblings and I were born. This cabin is pretty much as rustic as it gets; constructed out of old logs, with an old fireplace, an outhouse, and a tilted foundation. With the cabin being about ninety-five years old, we’re pretty lucky to have running water and a working toilet now.

    Every summer, my parents would load us all up in the car and trek for a good five hours to get up there for a week or so, and then return back to the cities almost every other week if my Dad was on call for his job. Before the trip, we’d round up little games and coloring books to keep us occupied. Depending on whether our Mum would be joining us for the trip up, my Dad would allow us to pick up something that would otherwise not have been approved upon by our very religious mother, such as Mad Magazine, ridiculous tabloids and, best of all, big league chew (yes we weren’t allowed to get big league chew because of the subliminal connotations.)

    On such an occasion as this, my younger brother picked up a National Enquirer that had, as it happened, the “Batboy” blown up to maximum size on the front cover. I had to reassure my eleven-year-old mind that I was much too old to be freaked out by a fake newspaper.
    The trip went as usual, boring and long until we finally arrived at our cabin shortly after sunset. We parked, brought our things into the cabin and lit a fire in the old, dusty hearth, which was customary of the first night up there.
    We played a few card games, and after a while, went to bed.

    The cabin was situated in the woods betwixt two super-mansion cabins that were relatively close by. But when the sun set, and you looked out into the pitch blackness of the night, you couldn’t feel more alone and isolated.
    Around two o’clock in the morning I woke up and had to use the bathroom. To this day I still dread windows and mirrors at night. If I have the misfortune to go past one in my late night treks, I would panic and tell myself not to think about Bloody Mary or of a serial killed watching me from outside. That night, my trip to the bathroom was also made all the more creepy by the fact that I had been poring over the “Batboy” issue that we had picked up earlier.

    As I got out of the bed, I squinted my eyes and thought about The Little Mermaid or something to distract me as I padded into the bathroom, and locked the door. The bathroom was relatively as run-down as the rest of the cabin with a small window that faced the backside of the cabin. In front of the window, was the trunk of large tree. We usually kept Christmas lights around that window to act as a form of night light. I finished up in there, and, as I tried to keep my eyes forward, my tired gaze locked onto that window. In the cheery Christmas-light-framed window, the blackness was broken by what I could only describe as a pair of thin, pale and very long fingers, pressed against the glass, tapping at the surface. I didn’t take my eyes away from whatever was at the window. I was terrified, but also confused and unable to register what I was seeing. It was a good ten seconds before the “hands” moved from their splayed position against the window. When they moved, I panicked, and wrenched the bathroom door open, my heart pounding in my chest. I quickly jumped into my bed, and curled into a ball under my sleeping blanket, shaking, having literally no idea what I had seen at the window. I had fallen asleep, and about two hours later, I awoke to the misty grey dawn creeping in the windows, unable to think about anything other than what I had seen.

    To this day, I honestly have no idea what was at the window. When I return to our cabin, which has remained completely unchanged since then, I look at the window and wonder. 


    Happy Spring! 

     

    Mary

  • I found this online and just completely love it.  
    If I wanted an excuse to get a tattoo, this would be one of them, haha!

    Mary

  • Little Art Projects!

    Just a little something I made a while ago. 
    I’m going to keep uploading whatever silly little things I make.  It’s nice to put it out on public domain.

    This is obviously not done, but it’s  some Mumford lyrics that I wanted to play around with when I had InDesign at my disposal one day. 
    It totally needs an image in that left hand chunk on the side, but I’m not quite sure what yet.  We’ll see :)

    I don’t know about you, but I kind of want it to be spring already.  I’m dying to show off my slightly more muscular arms that I’ve been working on.
    Since starting working out and dieting in a somewhat rigorous fashion with Ben, I’ve realized exactly what a month of work gets you, and it makes me excited to see what ANOTHER month will bring for Ben and I. 

    But hopefully Minnesota is done snowing for the year… I heard it’s supposed to rain tomorrow or over the weekend!
    We’ll see!

    Anyhoo, I have more things to show you, but I’m going to spread out my show & tell posts as much as possible :)

    Have a great day everyone!

    Mary